bored

So, today I felt really tired and didn't want to get out of bed, so I didn't for ages, just snuggled up to my BF and cuddled him until he decided that we should get out of bed and do something. After breakfast when he left and I had nothing to do I started feeling really sad for no real reason, like yesterday when I went to meet him after he finished work and we were going to see Paul but the cinema website lied and there wasn't a 4.30 session at all but a 4.00 session and I was really annoyed because all I wanted to do yesterday was see Paul and we couldn't because the session after was at 6.30 and wouldn't finish until 8.25 because of all the previews, and my nearest train home at that time leaves at 8.25 and the one after doesn't leave until 9.55 so I wandered off to find a newspaper but there were no movie sessions in it so we went to uni to look on a computer and decided to see Source Code at the same cinema because it is only an hour and a half long, and Duncan Jones is the director and I liked Moon and the session was at 5.15 so we'd be able to make the 7.25 train home. But I was so upset about missing Paul I felt like I was about to cry. I really need somebody to give me a proper job. I think I'm becoming depressed.
Today I watched last years Christmas episode of the Graham Norton show on youtube because Matt Smith was a guest and I love him. He didn't really get to say much though which is a shame, but he said that all his fan mail gets answered by his mother so I might send her a letter because I think that's a really nice thing to do. I almost cried when I was watching it because David Walliam's of Little Britain fame (who is a huge huge mega Doctor Who fan) said that he thought Matt Smith was the best Doctor in the history of the show and I thought that was a very nice thing to say (and also I agree).
Emotionally I am such a mess this week. Things should pick up though because I am booked in for a Barista and coffee art course on Thursday and that should be exciting. It's also a pretty integral skill for getting a job. I hope it leads to a job. I really need to get out of this house to do more than spend my non-existent money.